joyce meyers rocks

oh!!!!!!!so was watching a little joyce meyer on the tele earlier today, and that lady rocks!

anyways... she said something that totally hit home for me. she was talking about prayin' and stuff like that and said something along the lines of, "some people have "no life in it, because they made it a law"". so what does that mean to this chicka.... i meditate meditate meditate meditate everyday.not expecting any experience or anything, but still sometimes do it just for the "law" or routine of it. not taking a moment before starting to really be present and recognize what am doing. and yes...of course on the subtle levels all sorts of "life", amazing jazz, is probably happening. but the thought came that i'm probably doing it because it's "the law". this made up, created thing that just isn't the point. it's the tool used. the "life" IS. It Is This,That,Everything. i just use the tool because it great.

she also went onto the difference between receiving and getting and how we get the two confused. then she went to the definition of both, which found interesting.

receive: transitive verb1: to come into possession of 2 a: to act as a receptacle or container for b: to assimilate through the mind or senses3 a: to permit to enter : admit b: welcome , greet c: to react to in a specified manner4: to accept as authoritative, true, or accurate : believe5 a: to support the weight or pressure of : bear b: to take (a mark or impression) from the weight of something c: acquire , experience d: to suffer the hurt or injury

get:which can be used as a verb or a noun. transitive verb1 a: to gain possession of b: to receive as a return : earn2 a: to obtain by concession or entreaty b: to become affected by : catch 3 a: to seek out and obtain b: to obtain and bring where wanted or needed 4: beget5 a: to cause to come or go b: to cause to move c: to cause to be in a certain position or condition d: to make ready : prepare 6 a: to be subjected to b: to receive by way of punishment c: to suffer a specified injury to 7 a: to achieve as a result of military activity b: to obtain or receive by way of benefit or advantage 8 a: seize b: overcome c: to have an emotional effect d: irritate e: puzzle f: to take vengeance on ; specifically : kill g: hit9: to prevail on : cause 10 a: have —used in the present perfect tense form with present meaning b: to have as an obligation or necessity —used in the present perfect tense form with present meaning 11 a: to find out by calculation b: memorize c: hear d: understand12: to establish communication with13: to put out in baseball14: deliver 6b

so obviously there's a lot of defining things to these words, which again are just words, which am not going to get into right now. and honestly sometimes people who study the bible put too much emphasis on words which in their original translation or definition may have been different. but it caught my attention and thought to investigate more. now what did joyce have to say about it? don't know the program ended, but these talks these days are about relationships; with God, Partner, self, and world.

light love and blessings

nap time

ohhhh beautiful DC yesterday. haven't gone to bed yet. been up for almost 24 hr. going to take bath and nap and meet up with flight attendant in china town. still love jasan mraz, prettiest friend, and god moves through you....sooo nice.

like love and blessings.nap time mal luber artist

go obama, though it hasn't nothing to do with what i just wrote.

Ohhh!!! just found this pic and was totally there. it's in illinois, about 4hr or so drive from fairfield, ia.

So just kind of realized, don't really ever mention other men to my guy friends. and more so, never have. it's always been one of those things. in fact my girlfriends are lucky to here anything of interest about men interests in my life. that way i keep all men at a neutral. yeah right. what was that even supposed to mean.

am still planning on learning french. too bad my italian france man doesn't seem to be working out and my french london man still has a girlfriend.

ohh but just got done talking and emailing two of my favorite guy friends and now realize...realize absolutley nothing.

am headed to dc tomorow. won't it be ironic if my absontee balot finaly arived today. ironic may not be the choice word, but am sticking with it.

email the one friend about india, more stuff came together, and just how amazing the short trip to italy was. ohhh italy....dear beautiful italy! did find out, though, that most restaurants and food places put lard or some pig byproduct in all your food, and your lucky if you find a place that doesn't. i'm talking the pizza dough, breads, but not so much the pasta.

so that's sam's quick note.

sending lots and lots of love and blessings to the universe. Go Obama!!!

party party

helloooooo there!

hope life is going amazing!!! so funny am writing this like the start of an email.

don't know if i wrote anything about italy....met a lovely italian man who lives in paris. reconected with him via email. but no here back. so am letting that one go. again and again and again. ohhh...but he is ohhh so very lovely and sooooooo "my" type. mmmmm

well life keeps rockin and rollin and life is oh so very very beautiful these days. it even snowed on divali(spelling). oh that night fireworks, the nice illegal ones, for over 6 hours non stop. these folks know how to party party.

amen to ma

ahhh Ma and your Divinity! lead me guide me and direct me into Your Love Light and Will. Amen

jyotish reading and nvc

had a jyotish reading while in india. it was quite fun actually. he was quite, what i would call, traditional in his thinking. he told me to drink my water and milk out of a pure silver cup and throw an empty pot with a lid into a river, he also gave recomendations for pujas for the different planets. and though it may be thought, he tells that to everyone, it's not so true. the lady ahead of me was told to feed the monkeys and my traveling friend was told to feed the cows and elephants.

now where am i going with this? no where in particular, it was just on the mind. love love love

am to be headed to work in about 2 hours and have taken a shower, but haven't even started to pack or get ready to meditate. it's been about 2 or 3 days now since got home and started to feel more "normalized", or something. i remember back in college when the students came back from india, some of them made comments that they only wanted to hang out with people who had been on the trip and they were having to adjust to being back. and though i think there may have been a bit of that for me when coming back from new zealand, the feeling is so much stronger now. and the difference is, there is no one to talk to who i went with.

but ode to non violent communication! am so excited about learning in this new way!

back from india

Ahhh....just got back last night. and it was so funny waking up this morning. first of all woke up to a really interesting dinosaur dream. there were planes and hills and people. but when we went back in time...the soil was soooo rich with nutrients. they took on so many incredible colors and all the soil was so moist and fresh. i just kept playing and hugging it. it felt so alive!

so didn't really care to get on "routine" this morning. meditated once, sometimes twice a day on this trip, but no routine. but it wasn't wanted or needed there. not so much that it is "needed" here. it's just...well honestly...it is what it is.

was going to say don't know where to start, but have already started. first thing wanted to do this morning was read my friends blog. had forgotten all addresses except for india contact address. so no postcards were sent and computer contact was at a minimum. learned a lot of how am going to roll next time am in india. upon reading friends blog, just incase she reads this...suzy orman(that's not her last name), but suzy the financial planning lady. her website has all sorts of specific information on what to look at to ensure your bank is secure and your investments in things like money market accounts are secure. also on that note, had only heard from here-say about the market falling hard two times in one week. funny they are still saying gold would be a good investment, well actually i heard this about 3 months ago and just lightly mentioned 2 weeks ago. the US news was able to read in paper was a bit about the election and the more directly india related airline and tourism struggle. they didn't seem too concerned that our economy was falling and how it was to connect with them. well...actually that is not completely fair to state. there was a man on the train was quite aware of the connection between US economy and India economy. though communication at times was a struggle, the conversation was interesting.

now...yeah! went to india! started out south in kerala and ended in haridwar. there were stops inbetween that were absolutely amazing, but am going to have to look at my notes to remember where they all were. upon reflection in the airport, decided next trip in india will put more attention on pressence and being right in the moment, and also to love all like the Divine they are.

did meet up with friend for the journey. she has been down there for a month and a half already. so it was great for me being able to follow her experienced lead, but after a couple days she was like "hey! give me some input! i don't want to be making all the decisions!" and that was the start of the amazing growth in not only our relationship, but the relationship i have with other people and things. realized i was "jen" in the "ashley sam travel relationship", and was reintroduced to nvc(non violent communication) i say reintroduced because my other friend right before left had talked about it. and now...all the more not only want to read the book, but take a course on it. was pretty excited hearing about it from friend in cali, and then solidified when was in the moment needing to express and communicate.

so now am back and making plans for life. but that's not new. getting the india perspective was amazing and still being assimilated.