so greatful for flower essenses today.

went off on sister earlier. she's been quiet and non mean for the rest of the day.

woke up in a silent bubble. am greatful for all the healing taking place in my life right now.

am looking forward to this new life transition.

moving on from united. furloughs go through sept 1st.

now to get working with youth and helping them out.

ohhh i have so much to learn. may i learn it with love and grace.

please be easy on my world. i'm soooo sensative these days.

am trying to work out these knots that have been created. they were like my stress mechanism.

and now they are unwinding, this world i've put myself in seems so much meaner.

ohhh that i might be a beam of light and love and not so overly sensative to take it on.

love love love

am looking at prices for moving out and moving on.

get in a healthier environment.

it's good for me to hear all these people make excuses about the pain in there life....

it makes me want to yell "empower yourself! stop playing a victim!" i can only do this now, because i have been them. i say have been, as in past tense, because i don't want to have it continue to be my present reality.

love love love

so i've found the ring i want to get.

no not a wedding ring. those kind of things don't even really run through my mind hardly ever.

anyways... it's really pretty and kind of a deal, because i've never really bought a nice ring before. it's not the diamond pinky ring(which will still get one day soon) it's a surprise and once i get it, i'll share it with the world.

haven't even been journaling all that much lately. i keep speaking the travel bug i had is gone, but everytime i'm "home" for a couple days i want to run and go back to my cave. only i really don't have a cave to run to. so instead i stay up late and wake up late as a way to escape. night time is a different place and world for me i guese.

hmmmmm.......

been listening to beatles song, oh my love.

am in a warm fuzzy, i want a boyfriend to snuggle up to mode.

maybe when i stop listening to this song this feeling will pass.

it's a great song, just too short in my opinion.

smiles always

contemplating romantic love

such a sweet moment, but never sad once it's passed.

mmmm.......

cleaning house or email as it is

wow! wow! wow!
after a nap and a couple hours of email clearing and organizing, things seem more clear.
my hotmail email was able to get to empty, gmail to all organized, and yahoo deleted and organized through all emails.
Friend was saying something about organizing and after a second run in with my english bank acount, i decided having so many of everything, in so many places, coming from everywhere was just not a great idea. what do i mean??? and understand am still organizing and cutting back....3 credit union accounts 3 savings 2 checking, 2 bank accounts w/ 3 checking and 2 saving, 2 credit cards, 3 loans from 3 places....paychecks, auto debits, and such and well....i was bound to consolidate at somepoint.
solution??? working on it. i like them all for different reasons. ohh am getting a financial accountability consultant
thats all on the home front
blessings and peace out

something to write about

so just realized something great about moving....all the random stuff from childhood that had forgotten about. the random stuff no one would think of keeping if you passed away. ohh i won't keep you in suspense any longer. so what was found; about 10 postcards of travels to sacramento taken at age 12. both 7th and 8th grade class pictures and my first or second team basketball pic from when my dad was coach. i was age 8 or 9. ohh also my kindergarden class picture. which randomly does have one girl in it who just invited me as a friend on facebook. she officially is the longest know person i've kept in touch with. good times! really this is great! it's been a bit of a time getting all this moving stuff together.
since have lost my phone also lost all friends birthday info, so am searching these facts out now.
other than that am a bit on the sleepy side and do work tomorow. yeah!!!
love and love and love

uhhhhhhhhhh

it's time to blog again.
uhhhh....let go let go let go....
uhhhh....this and that this and that
uhhhh.... can you tell i'm in a mood?
aren't you glad you came?
i don't know if i'm coming going or standing still these days...
is it possible to go backwards?
or maybe just topple over.
this whole weight thing...this stupid relative weight thing.
my big pants got back to tight fitting, and got a whole in the knee. they are my only pants here that wear so went to buy an low priced new pair. bought one, without trying on...not a good idea, they were my average size. i just pray in england that means size smaller. actually wouldn't be bad if it was 1 size, but it was 2 sizes too small and the body still hasn't gone number 2 in days.
hee hee hee...number 2. i just called poo number 2.
i need to laugh and cry.
can i do both at the same time?
will these headaches ever just stop! full stop!
please just go away already!!!
i let go let go let go let go.....
peace love joy sweetness

smiles and light

ode to our amazing world!

am looking forward to national geographic earth day movie speacial.

watching a 10 things you need to know about us(british) because it makes us who we are today. it's a history channel show. it was interesting, and does seem pretty right on to the foundation of the way the brits live today. one thing they didn't mention, which i would think is an obvious foundation, and that is gold. maybe that wouldn't be very british and proper to metion such things, though.

really tried to cry this morning, no tears came, but the emotions were up.

transfer went through. may 1st transfer day.

US phone battery dead and charger left at parents home, and wont be back there for a couple weeks.

lourdes is on for the end of the week.

la la la la la

just needed to write a little. and may go into central town today. haven't meditated to am off for now.

smiles and light

just home

made it home right before it started pouring rain.

put transfer in for LAS last week and was sure it would be accepted, but not LAS transfers went through. so am still in london till further knowingness.

have decided to clean out my hotmail account. have had it since was like 13 or something.

let you know how it goes.

am thinking about growing hair out. it's at a pretty ok length right now. and the idea of growing it out is kind of exciting.

light love blessings